Frazzled


I’ve been out of it for the last couple of days. Definitely not in a good/settled frame of mind to be writing a blog post. I was hardly home and then when I was I just felt (feel) overwhelmed when I look around. We’re moving in 20 days exactly (very excited) and I have furniture I want sold and I’m also trying to get rid of unnecessary papers that are everywhere. As well as going around the apartment and cleaning out little nooks and crannies that can be done now and again, throw out stuff we have never used or what we used to use that we don’t anymore. Moving is hard. And since my husband’s last move happened while I was home and he had to do it alone, he’s not in a hurry to help. I’m not bothered by that because I might frustrate myself more trying to make him understand what I want with my millions of demands. Hence why I’ve started tidying up and cleaning so early.

It’s hard for me to not stress. I do it naturally about everything. I’m thinking of doing yoga again, it really helped a few weeks before our wedding. I have so many things in my head that I want to do, have to do, am in the middle of doing and don’t want to do. Yes, now you can see why I’m so stressed. I have notes everywhere – on my cell, on post-its, on the fridge, index cards, notebooks… I’ve had to write out daily schedules to make sure I don’t miss a thing, yet I still miss something because I forget to look at it.

I’m just writing today to get my frustrations out I guess. I intend to get help closer to the end but for now, it’s stuff I have to deal with. I know where everything is and where I want it to be. And that’s how it has to be. For me at least. But as I’m trying to repeat to myself all the time: don’t sweat the small stuff… and it’s all small stuff. I don’t know who I’m kidding, I can’t even finish the book! But that phrase pops into my head every now and then and I try to take a few breaths and just go with the flow.

I’ve been sharing those quotes of the day because I figured they give me a little peace of mind and something to think about daily and if I can share them with you I will. So here’s todays:

Taken from Real Simple

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Here are a few pictures from Wednesday (July 4th). My phone crashed at the start of the fireworks (forgot my camera) and when we got back by my friend I managed to get it on and realised I could’ve gotten a few more pics *sigh*.

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Only fireworks picture I have 😦
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Gas Works Park
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My love 🙂
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The beautiful Mt. Rainier in the back!

I’ve also been trying to get back into exercising and as I’m typing this, my legs are still rather sore from a twenty minute workout on July 4th and walking over a mile to and from the park, plus walking over an hour along Alki Beach with a friend Monday. I don’t  have the Summer body that I dreamt of but honestly f*ck it.. I’ll take myself with a few extra, oddly placed curves than to be stressing myself over my diet and exercising schedule considering all the other stuff I have on my plate. Thick chics are in! (at least in my head and that’s all that matters :D). Yoga isn’t as hard on my body as weight training is so that should be a plus for me doing it. Look good, feel good and be in a calm state of mind… Namaste.

I hope that whatever you do this Summer, you live to have no regrets. Just wonderful memories, experiences and time with loved ones.

xx

Hold on

Hold on

Many times in life we are faced with events that can cripple us with grief, make us leap for joy with happiness or even make us just sit quietly in awe.

Just one month shy of a year, we returned to New York last week to see my husband’s uncle who had a stroke last year. I do not wish to go into details on everything but it took everyone by surprise considering moments before it happened he was laughing heartily with his mother on the phone and making plans with her.

Since that trip, I have been offering him up in prayer that he may beat all of the odds against him. If you know someone who has had a stroke, you know that doctors aren’t always positive in their diagnoses. Well praise be to God! A year later he is able to acknowledge our presence and answer our questions with a nod or shake, smirk at jokes and scratch an itch.

Things like this renew faith, give us hope for better days to come and give us an opportunity to know that anything is possible in life – positive and negative. God works in mysterious ways and whether or not you believe there is a God, it’s events like these that make you acknowledge that there is a force out there greater than us, putting things into action.

We are human, and when in pain we cry out asking for questions, not looking at what led to such events or even what God may be saving us from. Patience is key. Patience and silence are golden. Reflect on life, always give thanks for what you have before begging for more. We have the power to make our own decisions, but ultimately He has the power to put his into place.

Life is precious. Let those you love know how much they mean to you. Be kind to those you don’t know. Don’t hold on to grudges and make yourself sick in the process. If you can’t forget, forgive and move on – let God handle it. Yes we are human, but we have to rise above negative influences and be more positive. Life always gives us lemons but make sure the next glass of lemonade is better than the last.

xx

De-cluttering


Today I started what I hope to be my week of Spring Cleaning. I cleaned the windows in the master bedroom, cleaned the master bathroom, removed all of the shoes in our closet, vacuumed and packed them neatly again while taking out pairs I know I won’t wear again to give to goodwill. I plan to go around the apartment and do at least 3 major things every day until I’m done. It will be hard but this needs to be done as we may be moving in the Summer, and I need to start getting rid of crap before. I like to hold onto paper stuff but I can easily get rid of shoes and clothes that I know I will no longer wear. It’s a process but I like to think that at least I’m not hoarding everything.

This morning I started my day with a glass of lemon water. I want to try this for the week and see if I notice a difference. I’m trying my best to not eat flour whenever possible which I attempted last week and saw a noticeable difference. I also need a detox for all of the alcohol I’ve been consuming socially recently! I’m putting a stop to that as I really need to make sure my diet is in order as I’ll no longer be training with a personal trainer at the end of next week. I want to do this on my own and be proud of my achievements. De-cluttering of body, mind and surroundings is something I need to achieve by the end of this month to move forward peacefully. I normally have an idea at the beginning of the year what the year would involve and those plans came in late but I want to be ready for everything that comes my way. And now that I know what is in store, I want to be able to not have to stress about my diet and exercise and whether or not I come home to a clean house.

The best thing about the future is that it only comes one day at a time.” Abraham Lincoln

Amen to that! One day at a time is all I need right now, and all I can look forward to. Even though I get caught up in planning ahead, at least I know that the future only gets closer one day at a time and that’s the only way to tackle every obstacle that heads my way…

xx