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Take it and Leave it!

December 6, 2011April 26, 2012by SymoneF3 Comments

Take it to God and leave it there!

This year has been a challenging yet rewarding one. This past week has been one serious eye opener for me. A lot has been going on and I am one who somewhat panics when situations go beyond my control. When this happens I take everything, place it in God’s hands and try to leave it there knowing His plans are always better than mine. Playing the waiting game, however, it can be good once I’m occupied with other stuff ~~I can control~~ and serve as a distraction for me.

This year didn’t play out as I expected it to, but for every dip it took, I saw God’s plans revealed in everything that happened after. But since last Thursday, I haven’t been sleeping properly because my mind has been racing with “what ifs” and when the questions got too loud I just said a prayer trying to calm my mind. Every other day, something has been revealed that has answered a “what if” and has put me at so much ease and it’s just amazing to see God’s power in effect.

Yes, this is a very vague post, obviously I’m not putting all of my business out there but maybe in time once the dust has settled I can reveal piece by piece what the Lord has brought me through. Sometimes, I wonder how people who do not have faith survive… I’d be one miserable person if I didn’t. It’s wonderful to know that once you are alive in that faith, you know that nothing is too much for you even if it seems so. We’re all human and we’ll always ask why even when we know we shouldn’t but once we leave it in His hands he never fails us… even if you think he did. One thing we must never forget to do is give thanks. We cry and throw tantrums, God blesses us and then we walk along like we did it on our own. We can’t do anything on our own! He’s always waiting for us to bring our problems to Him. He’s always placing people in our path to help us, the least we could do is say Thank you!

In light of some revelations I had this morning (remember silence is golden in a relationship with God) I had to write this post. A tweet or Facebook status would not have sufficed. I hope that as this poured out of me, it added a lift to your day.

God is good all the time… and all the time God is good!

Fitness, Life, Uncategorized

December..

December 1, 2011April 26, 2012by SymoneF2 Comments

AHHHHHHHH!! Yes, I’m freaking out, aren’t you? It’s December 1st already and I’m still sorting gifts, sorting luggage and what to pack (this time of the year is more difficult as there are more parties etc to attend) trying to make sure my apartment doesn’t turn into a huge mess every other day after packages are received. And it’s COLD… and gloomy. Which means, even though mentally I have a lot that I want to do, physically there is no drive whatsoever. This apartment has the worst natural lighting ever. You may be happy and cheery once you leave home but when you get back it’s depressing as hell. I still love the layout and double sinks in my master bathroom but I’d give up the sinks for better lighting. Anyway, I’ve finally put up all my little bits of decorations and I occasionally play Christmas music to really get me going. Last week Dave and I just went through all of the songs we love to hear and added them to a playlist. *Bliss*

Can you tell I’m ready to go home and enjoy time with my family and the sun, sea and sand?! I don’t know how long it’ll take me to really adjust to this weather but I dislike it a lot. You can get dressed and be well covered but knowing you have to put on so much is … ugh! I’m dreaming of a hot Christmas! Anyway, deep down inside I would love to be baking and filling the house with wonderful, yummy smells, but it’s just Dave and I right now, and food will be wasted. The main issue with holding stuff here is we have quiet hours plus parking is kind of stink for visitors so I don’t like to entertain too often. If that wasn’t the case I’d probably be doing something every other month. I love entertaining! But it’s probably a good thing because I’d get chunky eating so much. However, until we move, I’ll use this time to experiment with healthier options as gluten and wheat are making an exit from my diet. It’s also helping me get closer to my 2pack as I don’t think I could get a 6.. I don’t like to see girls with 6 packs – freaks me out! My friend already said she’s dying for my apple crumble so I know I’ll definitely be doing that when I get home.

I went to Michael’s yesterday and I got a few knick knacks – gift bags, boxes, tins, Christmas cards and a cute Christmas mug. I didn’t have one of those so I thought it would make me feel more cheery drinking from it lol. And it has a ceramic lid as well, I can’t wait to use it! I might go and get another one and then post pics of both of them. I’m awful with this follow up posting pics thing. I need to get into using the app on my phone ~~more~~.

I’ve been extremely distracted writing this post, so I think I’ll end here and probably do a follow-up when I’ve settled myself and my mind isn’t racing over everything that has to be done. The gym is still in operation and as much as I’m loving the transformation taking place I’m hating the soreness. Almost wish I was a man so I didn’t have to sit to pee… all in the name of toned legs and a perky butt! *sigh*

No pain, No gain…

Life, Uncategorized

It’s the little things…

November 27, 2011April 26, 2012by SymoneF2 Comments

I didn’t plan on writing another post today but after this morning I couldn’t help it. Every morning, I skim through the notifications on my phone – emails, bbms, twitter, facebook – to be checked and responded to once I’m officially up. Well, this morning as I was going through my emails, one name stuck out and I was utterly shocked. I’d received an email from a young lady (she’s now a pre-teen but still :)) I used to babysit. She’s now old enough to have an email address and she was just letting me know she has one and to email her anytime. I was actually moved to tears. Most of time I went home for the last 3 years I always managed to miss them as they were away on vacation as well. I’d seen them once since I left Barbados. I’m really hoping I get to see her this year when I go home.

I felt sooo special and overwhelmed and aged. I couldn’t believe time had passed like this already. I’d speak to her mom occasionally, keeping tabs on what’s going on with the family. I did babysit for a few years so the friendship is definitely there. I guess I’d felt like this because it’s kind of a testimony of the impact I had on her. She could’ve gotten older and simple remembered me as her old babysitter but didn’t think it was worth reaching out to me ever again. She definitely was a special one to me – she taught me lots of patience! And how important it is to just take your time and explain, be thoughtful, understanding and definitely spend time with kids when they are a certain age.

It was also through this family that I was blessed to have a 7 day stint looking after a child with special needs. One of the most rewarding weeks of my life. I’d gone to a small private primary school in Barbados (elementary school in the US) that had a class with children with Special Needs (another blessing). At that school you learned that everyone is equal and just wants to be accepted among their peers. Once you have an understanding of the person’s disability you know how to interact with them and that makes a huge difference. And learning that at such a young age always stuck with me, and made me more willing and less afraid to babysit this little girl.

I think my babysitting years have taught me a lot to carry through into motherhood and can probably be responsible for my passion when it comes to working with children. No two children are the same, and that is a challenge that fuels me in dealing with them. They are not adults so you have to break everything down and just see their innocence and work with it.

I just felt like this was worth sharing. Hope you enjoyed reading it :).