I’ve become more open. I talk more. I never used to. People took it for rudeness, or just being shy but I’m very introverted. Hence my love for writing. I’ve always had a handful of friends that I consider to be close. Never one to have a million friends around me all the time. I don’t do that. But more than anything I would be quiet, observe your behavior and then see if you were someone I’d want to befriend. If you made me feel like I could be myself. If you made me comfortable that anything I said was safe, nothing was off limits and yet you wouldn’t take my kindness for weakness. Silence meant observation. You could say I’m judgmental. I wouldn’t. I would say I don’t want to waste my energy on people I don’t think deserve it. To each his own.
I didn’t plan on writing a post but when I saw this quote of the day in my inbox it just really hit home for me. I didn’t talk and people found that intriguing. They knew I had a lot going on in my head but the fact that I didn’t say it, captivated them more and made them wonder what I was thinking. It’s funny, my husband’s family are always very curious when I don’t give my two cents on a topic or even when I am quiet. Sometimes, I don’t think my two cents is worth sharing. Sometimes, I think as an outsider my input shouldn’t count and it’s better left unsaid. Sometimes, I think I prefer if my thoughts stay with me as it may not be the time to express them. Timing is everything. For me at least. I don’t like when people talk too much, I get this sense of them just wanting to be heard, therefore, you are not thinking about what you really want to say and by doing so, you are just spewing BS.
Take the time today to be silent, and observe what is being said around you. What makes sense and who is just talking to be heard. Silence is golden. Listen to those who speak from the heart not the head, it means there is passion and belief.
On another note, I want to ask everyone to pray for those who died and were injured in the shooting last night in the theatre in Aurora, Colorado. I don’t remember the last time I wanted to book a ticket and fly home the same time. It’s truly sad what happened and I hope and pray that this was a one off thing. Every day we hear of people being killed and abused and it just doesn’t sit well with me. Yes there will be inequality, there will be abuse and there will be people who just seek to cause harm to others, but we need to be more vigilant and help those that need it if we see that something isn’t right. Life is too short. Let those you love know you love them and treat everyone the way you would want to be treated. Have a safe weekend.
Lots of love.